Saying goodbye

Saying goodbye can be difficult. Really difficult.
Specially when you are saying goodbye to someone you have shared many many years with.

Just yesterday, I had my last school day, and celebrated it with all of the 9th graders at my school. 3 classes in total. We both smiled, laughed and cried.
We actually still have
 our graduation, where the real goodbye is coming, but it still felt like it was the last time, and that we should say goodbye. And so we did. We went to hug all of our teachers and said thank you and held speeches for them.
It was all really touching, even though it wasn't the real goodbye.

The most of my class mates and me, has been admitted to the high schools we wanted, and we are looking forward to start there. Still we are having a really hard time saying goodbye. And we, at least I know I do, shed some tears now and then.

The only thing for us to do now, is trying to smile, and think about our future, and try to stay in touch.

When you have the opportunity to stay in touch, it can be a a great consolation, and make it a lot easier to say goodbye, because you know it's maybe not a real goodbye at all; even though it's going to be a lot different.

Death

We can be faced with death at all ages.Someone come not to face it untill they are 40 years old, and someone face it at the age of 5.
It's not something we can control, it's just something that happends.
The first time a realative dies, it comes as a shock. Even though you knew it would happen.
Because even when you are prepared for it, you aren't prepared. It maybe sounds strange, but when it has happend to you, you would know what I mean.
Another persons death, isn't something you can really prepare for, it's just something you have to face.
There's nothing to do about it. You can't bring the person back, no matter what. Therefore you have to live with the fact, and start living your own life again. Even though it seems almost impossible.
It applies for everyone. No matter if they are 5 or 50 years old.

The big difference is how you handle it.
There's many different ways to do that, and some are better than others.
Anyway, there isn't a rulebook, and if there was, it wasn't something you just can follow regardless. The only thing there is to say is, that you should try to say a good goodbye and get back to your life. It is possible.
And then you should look back at the good memories you had with that person. It doesn't help looking back on the bad ones.

Sometimes the death is infact, the best possibility for the person, and sometimes it's not.
Wouldn't it be much more worse, if they suffer instead?

Mistakes

We all make mistakes from time to another. And when we do, we can really think that we'd really screwed up and everybody is going to remember it forever and everyone will tease you a long time because of it.

But if it was another who made the same mistake, would you think it was that bad then?

Most of the time you would say no..

Because when it's another who is doing the mistake it dosn't seem so bad, if you always should react strongly every time someone did a mistake, we wouldn't do anything else.

It's a human thing to do mistakes.

The only thing to stop making the same mistakes, is learning from the mistakes you already did.

That's why it feels so stupid when we're doing the mistake ourself, when you almost dosn't care when it's another who is doing the same.

It's the only way to learn from the mistake.
But of course, sometime you should relax and take it slow. Maybe people actually didn't cared..?

Fear

Sometimes the things behind you can seem scary, but turn around and face your fear, only then you can come forward.