Teaching

Sometimes I have thought about how boring it must be to be a teacher.
All the time, you are together with someone who don't have that much knowlegde as you, aand you have to learn them the same things over and over again.
I can see that someone choose it because of their love to children and their pedagocial skills, but I have difficult to understand how you can get challenges in your everyday.
Maybe I'm totally wrong, and there is a lot of challenges. And I'm sure am. But what I know, is that I am looking for completely other challenges than I can see you'll get as a teacher.

Speaking for myself, I will say that I love to be in room with persons who's much more experienced and intelligent than myself. It gives me that challenge I want and need.
Then it's not me who need to teach and tell, but me who listen and learn. Thinking of being the one, teaching others all the time, freaks me out.
To be 'the teacher' sometimes is fine, but to be the teacher all the time, can't I find interesting or challenging. Not to an opponent who's on at least the same level of experience most of the time, is somehow scary for me.

I would look so stupid

You ofen hear people saying, "I don't know if I should do this, I would look stupid" or something like that.

It indicates that nowadays, people are afraid to do something, if they are unsure what everybody else would think of it. And if they are convinced that, what ever they do, would look silly, funny or stupid, then they are afraid of what other people would think, and they then choose not to do it. Just to be on the safer site.
And if they are supposed to do something they know they are not good at, they can tend to give up in advance, and then it's clear that whatever they end up doing, will go wrong and everybody will see that they haven't done anything to encourage it. And therefore it will look kind of silly, and noone will be impressed.
On the other hand, if they instead try to do it right, and take the assignment seriously, then people normally get pleasantly surprised and impressed. And you won't look silly at all.
As a bonus, you will feel much better afterwards, because you have done it, even when you were certain that you couldn't.

In reality people get impressed when you do something and try, no matter what your skills are, just the fact that your'e trying is impressing and admireable.
Otherwise, you will just look insecure and unserious, wich never look good.
Nowadays all to many people think to much about what other would say, and ends up not trying at all, when others actually would be impressed, just because you try.

Friends and loneliness

Friends and loneliness is the opposite of each other.

Thats at least what you tend think, but maybe it isn't always in that way..?
It's almost only the persons who has, or are trying it themself, who knows, that it isn't always how it is.

For someone, having friends doesn't always means that you aren't lonely.

Sometimes when everything seems fine, everything can be wrong.

Someone are in a situation where they only meet people, they actually don't get specially good along with. Maybe, on the outside, it seems like they're really getting along, and are very good friends, but sometimes the surface lies.

It can be, that they only are friends and a lot together, because of the fact that they don't know who else to be with. Or they only know someone who lives too far away etc.

And then they can feel lonely, even when they have a friend, or a lot of friends, if they doesn't get along that well as it seems.

To feel like having no really close friends, can really devastate you.

Sometimes you just wish that you had someone you felt like you could say anything to, and someone who would have you as "1st choice" nearly no matter what situation.

Feeling like that can make you feel empty inside. You can begin to close yourself and give up.

You can feel like you have no hope left.

And maybe the fact of people not knowing, not realizing what you are going through, that they're too ignorant to know, can be even more depressing and sad to you.

Many people isn't aware that someone can have it like that.

When everything seems fine on the outside, then what could be wrong?

If I were you

"If I were you, I would have done otherwise."
"No, if you were me, you would do the same, because I am me and you are you, and I think otherwise than you."

Conversations in the dark

This is a translation of the essay I wrote at my danish mock exams.

It's maybe a little funny written, but it's because I didn't want to change it that much, and then the grammar can sound fun.

Conversations in the dark

Soon will there no more exist places without artificial lights?
As our world become more and more infected by the electronics predominant force, dosn't the natural mysterius darkness disappears at the same time?

It's only in the darkness where your thoughts and your imagination can flourish in any direction.

Uninfluenced by luminescent screens and beeping sounds, the world seems completly different.

It's in the darkest forest, I walk right now.

I walk carefully. Feel my way with my hands and feet.

I feel exposed and defenseless.

I don't feel I have control over my own destiny and way. The only thing I can do, is to feel my way.

Here in the dark I become absorbed in my own toughts.
They fly back and forth.

They increase the sounds around me, and try to find a meaning.

Every broken branch will give me a jumo, and every beautiful birdsong will make me smile.

Here I'm a stranger, but at same time home.

Here I'm just a little piece of a big connection or am I?

I stop.

Maybe I should turn around?

Maybe I should turn?

Or should I continue straight on?

There is so many choices, and without use of the sight, then I must be able to make a decision without being influenced by everything else, am I right?

Or would I loose some of my jugdement as a consequence of missing visual impression?

When you're in the dark, wouldn't you end up talking to yourself at last? Maybe not out loud, but certainly wthin yourself.

And does it matter at all, if it one or another? Your only company is the darkness and your own impressions.

In the dark, can everyone have the permission to be themself, without having someone to pretend they're someone else at?

You don't have the need to a compromise with yourself or others?

Isn't the darkness relieving when you think about it?

We live in the artificial light, but can create our own world in the dark.

Here we can shape everything and create what we want.

It's our own rules that applies in the dark.

And the worlds we create seems real, but why can't we just stay in the dreamworld and forget the mess, that's called reality?

Do we need to return, when the dream is so much better?

Many times has I woken and have been confronted with the artificial light and a wish that the dream and darkness would remain.

With a wish that the drema come true, and the light would get wings and fly away, just as it can when you are in the dark.

The whole thing is so light and airy in the dark.

It must be possible to stick to it and live there, or is it to light and airy?

Of course you then get rid of your fears taking shapes of something, that's far worse than in the light, but isn't it why it's harder to confront it in the light?
The darkness must be the perfect.

In the dark, you can create a world on your own, you can make all your ideas come true and all of your problems goes on vacation or takes a shape and shows itself for you, so you can see them. Dosn't it sound perfect?

And it can't be false adversiting, right?

Is it really true that you need light to have dark?

Can't you just settle for one of them?